Today the sky is blue without a cloud insight , the sun is bright, the ocean is a glorious blend of green and blue , the waves are so calm and gentle they slowly fade into the white sand creating a breathe taking collision of beauty. a testament to the greatest artist known to man. It’s like the perfect song to a beautiful day .simply ironic.
I once read a book with a rather tragic end but what made it memorable is the writer’s choice to end with a very peculiar phrase … “To die you must live first”.
Though young I have no shred of doubt that I have lived .Before I met you I had hoped only to belong but in you I found much more, I found a home .you my dear charlotte welcomed me with an open heart and taught me how to love. You made me feel invincible, unstoppable, even the wildest storm seemed calm with you in my arms. In your eyes ,your beautiful brown eyes I saw the universe and in your arms I found joy.
I remember you lying in the fields reading your favorite poem with a voice clear as day.
My perfect shot with my rose right in the middle.
“Ssshhh! my loud heart , silence! echo not in repeat. Relieve my twisted gut
I ask of you this one treat
Breathe slow my lungs
Not to take in all the smoke
From the burning firery fungs
A relentless screech of mock
Release me am slowly drowning
In every breathe I take
A trap of my own doing
Heaven and hell in one make”
The day you left my dear charlotte , I crashed. Becoming a wreck that couldn’t be salvaged. I know not when my sky turned grey, was it when tears flooded my eyes as I watched you fade into the shadows ? Or when my heart was breaking in pieces as I said goodbye? .I simply can’t tell. all I know for sure is that my world fell apart.
I did ask you once
If Would you be my shield my shelter If you would fight for me with you last breathe
I guess I know the answer now.
Was it all in my head? Maybe, but this not me condemning you to a life of guilt but a letter of gratitude for giving me something that is timeless
fate was cruel and I simply refuse to live in a world where you and I no longer exist. The air is becoming thin with every breath. I am forgetting how to breath I fear my end beckons yet am at peace , ready to embrace nothing. i must leave curtains closing but as I take a glance at my life, I smile because you, my dear charlotte in your embrace I lived.
by Grace Irungu.